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jared fever

2007-09-18T13:35:08Z

well... addicted to jared leto ever since i watched alexander. jared love~!

Title: Behind Those Glass Eyes
Author: genkified_pyke
Rating: G
Genre: A.U./Romance/Angst
Chapters: 1/?
Pairings: Gerard Butler/Jared Leto, Colin Farrell/Jared Leto
Warnings: None for now
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters.
Summary: “Do you mind if I sit with you?”
Author’s notes: It’s not my first time to write fanfics but it is my first time to write for this fandom. And I haven’t written for a long time so I might be a bit rusty. Please feel free to leave a comment anyway!

“Hmm… he’s late today.” Gerard mumbled to himself as he took another sip of coffee from his cup.

When he came in the coffee house that morning, he was quite surprised to see the blue-eyed man’s usual table empty.

He couldn’t help feeling a bit worried. What if something had happened to him on his way to the coffee house? He was blind after all and was more prone to accidents.

After a short while, Gerard finally heard the familiar sound of bells ringing, indicating that someone had just entered the place. He looked up let out a small sigh of relief upon seeing the beautiful man.

Something was different about him today though. He looked distressed as he carefully made his way toward the counter. Gerard could see him talking to one of the employees who seemed to know him. He had asked if he could use their phone and he immediately thanked the employee when she said ‘yes’.

The blind man quickly punched in the number he needed to call. From the way he expertly located the buttons on the telephone, anyone could tell that this wasn’t the first time he has called that number.

“Hello, Shan?”

“Hey, baby bro. How are you doing?” He smiled upon hearing his brother’s voice.

“I’m fine… how’s the photo shoot coming along?”

“It’s going pretty well. Might still be quite some time before I come back from my trip though.”

There was a short pause before the blind man spoke again.

“I miss you, Shan.”

“I miss you too, baby bro.” The man on the other line smiled. “So what seems to be the problem? Why did you call me?”

“Nothing’s wrong. I just wanted to know how you were doing.”

“C’mon, baby Jay. I know you wouldn’t call me for no reason. What’s up? You can tell me.”

There was another short pause at this.

“Colin… he… he lost his job.” He finally spoke up.

“Since when?”

“A little over a week from now.”

“How are you guys coping?” Worry obvious in the older brother’s voice.

“We can still manage for now although Colin… he’s not taking the situation too well.”

“What do you mean?”

“He’s not acting like himself lately… he comes home in the wee hours of the morning, drunk. He has such a short temper these past few days that I can’t even talk to him without fearing that he’ll bite my head off.

“Did he hurt you?”

“No. But I’m still scared, Shan. I mean, he has every right to be frustrated. His boss fired him because he thought Colin was stealing money from him. He wasn’t, Shan. He’s innocent. But one can only be angry for so long. It doesn’t seem normal anymore.”

“I see… I’m guessing he hasn’t found a new job yet.”

“He’s not having that much luck this time and that’s only adding to his frustration. I offered my help but you know how he doesn’t like the idea of me working.”

“I don’t like the idea of you working either, baby bro.”

“I know… but I’m just worried. I hate seeing Colin so crushed and defeated.”

“I’m sure he’ll be fine. Just give him some more time and he’ll soon be back to his normal jolly self.”

“I hope so too.”

“If you need anything, anything at all… you know I’m just a phone call away.”

“Thanks, Shannon.” He smiled. He always felt better after talking to his brother. “I guess you should go back to work now. I hope I didn’t disturb you.”

“Not at all. You always come first in my list and don’t you forget that, all right?”

“Okay. Thanks again.”

“I hope things work out for you and Col. I’ll be back soon. I’ll see you then.”

“See you, Shan. Bye.”

He hung the phone up and let out a soft sigh. After that, he let his guide dog lead him to his usual table. He didn’t bother ordering a cup of coffee seeing that he was tense enough already.

Gerard, who sitting not too far from the other, didn’t make much out of the conversation but it was clear to him that the blind man was troubled.

He wasn’t used to seeing the other like this at all. It wasn’t his concern, he knew that but somehow, he couldn’t bear to see him without a smile on his face.

‘Just go talk to him. It’s not that hard… maybe it’ll even make him feel better.’ Gerard thought to himself. He was about to stand up when he quickly sat down again. ‘But what if he finds me weird? Well, you’ll never know unless you try.’ He stood up again only to sit back down on his chair.

“Where has all your confidence gone?” He asked himself as he rubbed his forehead. Everyday it has been like this. He would almost always get to start a conversation with the blind man but he would eventually back out before he could do so.

“You can do this, Butler. It’s your time to shine.” He encouraged himself before finally standing up and heading to the other man’s table.

“Do you mind if I sit with you?”

The blind man blinked a couple of times upon hearing Gerard speak.

“Excuse me, were you talking to me?”

“Actually, I was. So, do you mind?”

“No, not at all. Please.” At this, the blind man grabbed a chair and pulled it back for the other to sit on.

Gerard took the seat and just stared at the man beside him for a few seconds. This was the first time he was sitting this close to him.

“You know… frowning would only make you look older.”

The blind man’s frown quickly melted into a soft smile upon hearing this.

“That’s better. Keep that smile, all right?” Gerard couldn’t help being infected with the other’s smile. It wasn’t until a few seconds later that he realized he still hasn’t introduced himself to the other.

“I’m Gerard Butler by the way.” He was hesitant at first but took the other’s hand in his and shook it gently. Gerard smiled when the other shook his hand back.

“Jared. Jared Leto.”

~TBC~

yes, i live! after not posting for sooooo long x.x

2007-08-30T11:58:27Z

Title: Behind Those Glass Eyes
Author: genkified_pyke
Rating: G
Genre: A.U./Romance/Angst
Chapters: Prologue
Pairings: Gerard Butler/Jared Leto, Colin Farrell/Jared Leto
Warnings: None for now
Disclaimer: I do not own any of these characters.
Summary: It’s hard to trust a person when you can’t see him.
Author’s notes: It’s not my first time to write fanfics but it is my first time to write for this fandom. And I haven’t written for a long time so I might be a bit rusty. Please feel free to leave a comment anyway! (This is in Gerard’s POV.)

I smiled upon entering the coffee house.

He was there again on his usual table.

He has always been there with his dog, sipping his hot coffee and listening to the music on his player.

I don’t exactly know when I started to notice him, what attracted me to him.

Maybe it’s because of those hypnotizing red lips that seem to beckon me all the time.

Or maybe it’s the way his brown hair shines in the light.

Or is it the fact that I always drown in those deep blue eyes whenever I look at them.

The list goes on, but one thing’s for sure. I can’t stop thinking about him.

Several times I’ve tried to approach him, start a small conversation, and maybe end up being more than just friends.

Fear was what stopped me. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be welcomed in his presence, that he might not trust me.

After all, it’s hard to trust a person when you can’t see him.

I guess that’s one of the reasons that made him special. He just seems so vulnerable most of the time because of his disability and that makes me want to be close to him, to always protect him.

Yet here I am, still keeping my distance from him.

Maybe I will eventually have enough courage to approach him and talk to him.

Maybe I’ll get over this crush and move on after a short time.

Maybe I’ll lose my chances of having him for not acting soon enough.

No one really knows what the outcome will be, but for now, I’m content with just watching him from afar.

~TBC~

last chapter of dough boy! posted years later... ^^;;

2007-03-20T00:21:07Z

cross-posted like everywhere!
jrockyaoi, direngrey_yaoi, jrock_aufics, kaoxtotchi

Title: Dough Boy
Author: genkified_pyke
Rating: PG
Genre: A.U./ Fluff
Chapters: 16/16
Pairing: KaoruxToshiya, and some side pairings.
Disclaimer: I don’t own Dir en grey… they all belong to themselves.
Summary: Kaoru, a successful pastry chef suddenly finds a young teen named Toshiya outside his house. Toshiya wants to be just like Kaoru some day and the only way to do that is to ask the master himself to teach him his ways.
Author’s notes: Came totally out of no where. I was thinking of fics for jrock_aufics And I thought I was finally going to write one with an NC-17 rating… aaand… I ended up with PG again… ^^;; And the title… don’t ask… it was either that or… ‘Baking Master Totchi’ so yeah… please feel free to leave a comment! ^^

the first few parts of Dough Boy
part one
part two
part three
part four
part five
part six
part seven
part eight
part nine
part ten
part eleven
part twelve
part thirteen
part fourteen
part fifteen

“Toshiya, are you ready for our lessons?”

“Not today. I have other things to do.”

“Toshiya? Lessons?”

“Sorry, I’ll be busy today.”

“We’re really behind schedule, you know?”

“Yes, I’ll make it up to you Kaoru. Just not right now.”

Hmm… how many times have I heard this? Frankly, Toshiya has missed every single lesson for this week. He goes out early in the morning and doesn’t come back until late in the evening.

It’s been the same old alibi everyday. It always has something to do with ‘I’m busy’. Busy with what? At least I finally got an answer to that question this morning.

“Um… dancing. See you Kaoru!”

And right at this moment, I’m still trying to figure out why he would have a sudden interest in dancing.

Was it because I was too hard on him? If that’s the case then I promise I won’t mistake his cookies as coasters again besides, I did say I was only kidding. I’m sure Toshiya’s not the kind who would easily blow a fuse because I’m supposed to be the impatient one.

Okay, just calm down Kaoru. I’m sure there has got to be a logical explanation for all of these. Every time I jump to conclusions I happen to guess wrong all the time. I’m going to make sure not to judge people too hastily this time.

There’s really nothing surprising with Toshiya taking dancing lessons. It’s almost as normal as me taking… flower arranging lessons.

Ew.

So… it’s not so normal after all.

It wouldn’t hurt to do a small investigation.

~*~*~*~*~*~*

“Pastry Man?”

“Yes, Kyo?”

“I know this is rude of me to ask but…”

Ask away.

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING BACK ON MY DOORSTEP AFTER YOU TOOK TOSHIYA AWAY FROM ME AND LOCKED ME UP IN MY OWN OVEN?”

Whoa… a guy could actually go deaf from all that screaming.

“If you must know, I’m just wondering what Toshiya’s been up to lately. I’m here because you might know the reason.”

“Well, I don’t. Have a nice day Pastry Man. Buh-bye!”

I grabbed the door and stopped it from slamming right into my face. The least he could do was let me in.

“Let go Pastry Man! I don’t want you to step foot in my house ever again!” The little midget didn’t play fair at all when he suddenly sank his sharp teeth on my hand which was holding the door.

Naturally, I pulled back.

I didn’t even get the chance to try and get back inside the house when Kyo locked the door shut.

“Fine! Don’t help me then!”

I’ll go solve this mystery by myself.

~*~*~*~*~*~*

“Is he gone?” Toshiya, who was hiding behind the door all the time, spoke up.

“He’s gone all right.”

“That’s a relief. Thanks Kyo!”

“Don’t mention it. But now I’m all curious too. What have you been up to these past few days?”

“Um… I don’t think I can tell you Kyo.”

“Why? Because you don’t trust me enough?”

“No, because I have this feeling that you’re going to blab it to the whole world.”

“Oh… is that all?”

“Yes, and now I have to go! Bye Kyo!” And with that, Toshiya left in a flash.

“…”

Kyo just stood there absorbing the things that had happened that time.

“Hey, wait a minute… TOTCHI!”

~*~*~*~*~*~*

Great. Just fucking great. Kyo was my only hope… why in the world did I have to lock him up in the oven?

Now I have to think of other people who could possibly know what Toshiya’s been doing these days. Who are Toshiya’s other friends whom I know as well anyway? Well, there’s Kyo… and…

“Die…”

How come this has never hit me before? Or course it had to be him. But dancing and Die? I don’t those two things really mix together. I should know. I’m a pastry chef. I do all the mixing around here and Die plus dancing makes a recipe for disaster. I’ve seen trees dance better than Die.

Die has Shinya though and who knows, that little assistant of his might be the best player in dance dance revolution.

Could it be that Toshiya’s planning to be the first dancing pastry chef in Japan?

Only way to find out is to ask, Niikura.

~*~*~*~*~*~*

The one thing I like about going to Die’s shop this time is that he can’t slam the door on me like what Kyo did. Damn it, I’m coming in as a customer and if he pushes me out his shop, I’ll make sure that this gets to the owner, who is Die, and make him fire himself.

“Welcome to Happy Cupcake.” Shinya greeted me when I set foot into their store. His expression quickly changed though upon seeing me.

“Kaoru-san! What… what are you doing here?”

Hmm… that’s definitely a guilty look if I’ve ever seen one.

“I’m just wondering if you’ve seen Toshiya around here.”

“To-Toshiya-san? Nope. Haven’t seen him. Not at all.” I raised an eyebrow at this. Yes, not only does Shinya have the most obvious guilty look ever but he’s probably the worst liar too.

“Okay, I know he’s here. Where is he?”

“I already told you. He’s not here. Besides, I won’t allow him to stay here anyway and give him a chance to spend more time with my Die-sama.”

“Are you sure?” I started to walk toward the kitchen, ignoring the smaller man already trying to block my path.

“Yes, I’m sure. Now if you’re not going to buy anything I suggest you go back to minding your own shop.”

“Now, that’s not the proper way to treat a customer, is it? Where’s Die? I want to see him.”

“He’s not here. He’s um… on vacation… um… in Hawaii!” Shinya raised his hands, preventing me from going any further.

“Oh? I didn’t know Hawaii is now inside Die’s kitchen. I would sure love to see that.” I easily pushed the small fry away and made my way into the kitchen.

“No!”

Sorry, too late.

“What the fuck?” To my surprise, there was no one inside the kitchen. Well, no one besides the other pastry chefs doing their job and this giant cake in the middle of the room. What I meant was there was no sign of Toshiya and Die inside.

“What did I tell you? They’re not here.” Again, Shinya was in front of me. “If you don’t mind, the kitchen is off limits to non-employees.” He said as he ushered me out of the said room.

I frowned. I couldn’t think of any place else where I could find Toshiya. I wasn’t about to give up. Niikura Kaoru is no quitter.

I left the place feeling frustrated with what had happened. Maybe this is one of the few times that Die had an unhappy customer leave his shop. How ironic, since the name of his shop says otherwise.

~*~*~*~*~*~*

This is not good, not good at all. Days turned to weeks and weeks turned to well, more weeks and I still haven’t gotten a clue to what Toshiya has been up to.

I’ve tried and tried but I’ve failed. Let’s face it. I’m just not trained to be nosy, to pry into other people’s business. Mainly because I don’t give a damn about anyone’s business except mine. But this is Toshiya we’re talking about.

Here I am, alone in my house again. It’s like I never asked Toshiya to live with me in the first place.

I really miss him a lot. I never realized coming back to a home without my Toshiya in it could be this… lonely, and this coming from a man who has lived on his own for so long.

“Come home Toshiya… I don’t care if we have to miss all our lessons… I just want to see you for more than five seconds.”

And to make things worst, I have a visitor now knocking on my door. Can’t people feel it when I’m not in the mood to be sociable right now?

The knocking became more urgent and I was tempted at that moment to strangle whoever it was behind the door. “I’m coming. Hold your horses.”

Jesus, whoever you are… this better be important.

“SURPRISE!” I jumped back when I was suddenly attacked by multiple colored balloons.

“Holy shit.” Are you people lost? I’m quite sure I don’t have any reason to celebrate right now.

“Happy birthday!” Several voices greeted behind the balloons.

My birthday? Was that today? I swear, I was so preoccupied with Toshiya that I forgot all about the date and time.

Whoopee… a free party is not really something I should complain about but if you can’t celebrate it with the person most important to you then what’s the fun in that?

I finally managed to get the balloons inside the house and the faces behind them started to reveal themselves. There was Die, Shinya, and Kyo. Oh, and they seem to have brought a giant cake with them, which looks oddly familiar by the way.

“Are you just going to stand there? Let us in, Pastry Man!” Ah, Kyo… you’re polite as always.

“Come on in, guys…” I moved to the side, opening the door some more allowing the giant cake more room to get in.

“What’s wrong Kaoru? It’s your birthday. C’mon let me see a smile.” Die put a hand on my shoulder, shaking me a little.

I tried, I really tried to show him a smile.

“You call that a smile? I’ve seen a happier face on a dead fish.” Obviously I failed.

“I know what will make you happy!” Die pushed me, making me seat on the chair behind me.

Maybe I sound too hopeful but what I’d really want for my birthday is my Toshiya. Give him to me, Damn it!

“Bring the cake over.” Die motioned to Kyo and Shinya. Great, more cake. As if I’ve never seen one in my entire life before.

“Trust me on this one, Kaoru. You’ll love this.” Fine. I’ll humor you. Die stepped back to dim the lights, leaving the cake and me alone in the room. Oh Die, it’s what I’ve always wanted, a date with a giant cake on my birthday.

Before I even noticed it, music started to flood the room. Are you crazy people expecting me to dance with the cake too?

I simply sat there, listening to the music and waiting for something to happen.

Even though the music was booming, I could still make out what Die was mumbling to his other two companions.

“I don’t get it. He should be out by now. Do you guys think the lid is stuck?”

Wait a minute. Are you telling me that…

Before I could finish that train of thought, a knocking sound was heard from inside the cake.

“Um… guys… a little help… I think I’m running out of oxygen here…”

I gasped. There was no mistaking it. That was Toshiya’s voice I heard! He’s here, he’s actually here! And… oh my god… he’s inside that cake and… was he going to do what I was thinking he would? My sweet innocent Toshiya? Someone, please catch me. I think I’m going to faint.

“Shit…” I heard Die curse as he took a vacant chair and stood on top of it, trying to take the lid off. He quickly moved out of the picture once he got the top off.

I had to use up all the will power I had to not get up from my seat and start jumping around like a happy fan girl.

The first thing I saw were Toshiya’s hands, pulling himself up from inside the cake. His hair was done and he had make-up on but what really caught my attention was the outfit he was wearing.

He was wearing this black corset and a pair of almost non-existent leather shorts. He had a black chocker on and knee-high boots.

What happened to the Toshiya I knew? Whatever Die did to him… wow. I for one am not complaining to his transformation.

Toshiya looked straight into my eyes and licked his lips sexily. I gulped, unable to contain the emotions I was feeling right now.

He first took one foot out then the other, slowly making his way down each layer of the cake like his was walking down the stairs.

Just when I thought I’ve never seen anything sexier than this…

THUD!

Toshiya falls face first to the floor.

I literally have to bite my lower lip to keep myself from laughing out loud. I hope Die’s happy. Nothing could wipe the smile off my face now.

“Mou…” Toshiya whined a little as he stood up. That cute blush, which I missed so much, was on his cheeks again as he made his way toward me.

What surprised me next was that he started to sway his hips this way and that. He was… dancing. So that was what this has been all about. It was his birthday gift to me. No wonder he didn’t want me to find out.

I took a quick glance at Toshiya’s face and I swear he looked like he was trying to remember every step Die, or whoever it was that taught him. And I think he was anyway. He was losing the sexy image and was going back to his cute one, which I much prefer, mind you.

He continued to sway his hips, moving his hands around his body and only stopped when he was standing right in front of me. He then sat down on my lap, making me swallow back a moan.

He leaned close to my ear and whispered ever so softly, his breath tickling the outside of my ear.

“Happy birthday, Kaoru-sensei…”

The truth is, I would have taken him right then and there if it weren’t for my amazing will power.

“Did you like it? Was I any good?” Eh?

“Don’t stare at me like that… say something! I messed up the first part but I did try my best.” He was back to his normal cheerful self. That ruined the mood completely but it wasn’t like I was REALLY planning to do anything that moment. Not with Die, Shinya, and Kyo in the house. I’m not insane for crying out loud.

It didn’t matter anyway. The important thing was that Toshiya made me the happiest pastry man ever and I don’t even care right now if I don’t get some loving tonight.

“I loved it.” I replied with a genuine smile.

He smiled back and kissed me firmly on the lips, pressing our bodies together. He pulled back after a few seconds and hugged me, resting his head on my shoulder.

“I love you, Kaoru-sensei.”

Aaw… that made my stomach flutter.

“I love you too, Toshiya…” I placed a hand on his back, pulling him closer, while my other hand stroked his hair.

I looked around the room remembering that I had three other guest but they were nowhere to be found. I guess they were smart enough to give me and Toshiya some space.

I looked back at the giant cake and now I recall where I had last seen it. In Die’s kitchen. So that redhead was the one responsible for this after all.

The only thing that I caught my attention was a hole on one layer of the cake, which looked like someone had bitten a part out of it. I don’t remember seeing that when I first saw the cake in Die’s kitchen. In fact, I don’t remember seeing that all through Toshiya’s performance.

“I wonder…”

~*~*~*~*~*~*

“I can’t believe Toshiya never told me about this…” Kyo grumbled as he walked down the road with Die and Shinya.

“Toshiya never told you? No wonder you didn’t know that cake was made out of cardboard.” Die laughed.

“Hey, for a professional pastry chef… that cake you made, really tasted awful.” The blond grumbled some more.

~owari~

Author’s notes: Yes, I finally updated after being gone for sooooo long… ^^;; I was so busy these past few months, being a graduating student and all. But school’s over now! That means I have more free time. And my parents bought me a new laptop! *O* Motivation is they key word here… ^^;; So… I hope you guys liked the final chapter… even though took me eons to post it. I’ll still post that epilogue so watch out for that. ^__^

diru flash animation!

2006-10-11T17:23:39Z

also posted at jrockhumor, jrockyaoi, direngrey_yaoi

hey everyone... again... i bring to you another flash animation. this time it's shinya and kyo! ^___^ sorry if i haven't been updating much on my fics lately... we had no electricity some weeks ago and then my computer went haywire... so... yeah... .___.;; hope you guys understand! ^___^ please feel free to leave a comment as well! ^^

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fanart again

2006-09-01T13:08:21Z

done for 30_dates also posted at diextoshiya, ando_x_hara, direngrey_yaoi, jrockyaoi

Fanart
Pairing: DiexToshiya
Rating: G
Theme: #4 The Mall; Shopping

dough boy!

2006-08-21T02:43:59Z

dough boy part 12! finally!

2006-07-07T13:42:55Z